I have been going out with my boyfriend Colin now for four months. I am truly and madly inlove with him. Before we got together we had been friends for 3 years, I dont mean best of friends but we worked together and sent the odd occasional friendly email. I had always had a soft spot for him, but thought he was well out of my league. Plus he had a girlfriend who he had been with for 2 years. Anyway to cut a long story short, he moved in with girlfriend and even proposed to her, which she accepted. In January of this year they split up, I was the first person he text to tell me what had happened. Things had not been right for a while but he did not want to really admit to it. I was in a relationship with somoene else. In the August I split up with my ex and then the flirty emails started between me and Colin, he asked me out to the pictures and I went. I thought things would be weird from friends now to dating but we sparked instantly. 2 months past and things GREAT, we even said we loved each other. He said he had never felt this way before about anyone, but found it hard to believe him as he had a five year relationship with his ex who he was engaged too. I obviously didnt say this too him... he said everything flowed so easy, nothing wrong, everything is perfect. He had problems with his ex like trying to sell the property etc but eveything is sort of sorted now, she is living in it. Here is where I begin to tell you what the trouble is. I am soooo scared that he will never love me the way he loved her even though he says he has never felt this way before. I am starting to doubt everything and it is starting to upset me. I dont think I am good enough for him... even things like this for example. He got on really well with his ex Mam, mine however is an alcholic. I keep thinking he needs to be with someone else who's family is perfect. I keep thinking with everything he will be comparing me and her together. Also another thing is he likes me wearing baggy jeans and tracksuit bottoms, I should have asked ages ago does his ex wear them? I now have to ask him and dont know how to go about it. I feel if he says yes it will upset me greatly and would think he is not over her by wanting me to dress like her, even though he may just like the look? I just think how can I compete with someone he shared 5 years of his life with?
I know we will make are own memories but I am finding it hard to just forget about his past, I keep thinking maybe I should walk away and start afresh no matter how much I adore him...
Any help would be great... Thanks Sarah
